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November 2009 
Why do people want to stay young or youthful?
Posted on Aug 15th, 2009
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B.B.
B.B.
This is in Response to the Questions and Reflections for August 15, 2009:
I am not clear on why others want to stay young or if they even do.
Age for me well I have mixed thoughts on it. The number itself is cool I like it that I' am 45 just the number just sounds cool,then so did 18 and I was officially of age well 19 if I was doing the Ontario thing.
Initially I think about what seems to have aged,and mostly it is the exterior I don't look exactly like I did when I was 20. You can recognize me in a photo but it's me older,it's like life redistributes itself all over the human body. Tissue becomes lived in,scars ,stretch marks,freckles and moles,that line where they cut me open twice to birth my babies,the mini scar from a procedure done on the 25 of December bc I had become the neatest shade of yellow. My toes pretty well look like they did 30 years ago feet are funny. The lines around my eyes,the ones that are getting deeper around my nose,my tits,well I just sighed so that sums that up,and my ass well I never had one which is quite a blessing now I am 45 bc it still looks kinda cute.
Sitting on a bed years and years ago,the room smelling like oil paints bc she just didn't do acrylics...another sigh....I felt the same way I do today,my mind does that hooks me up with me earlier on when ideas repeat exactly like deja vu but really viewed and felt. The inside ,the inside,how it seemed to scream to get out,to be unleashed and how that worked for me was it made an exchange with the outside.
I don't want to stay young bc I have lived and living does crazy stuff to me,there is no shame in it, no pride either just an acceptence of who I am grasping it a little better each day,or is it letting go ,or the recognition....now my boobs ,well if I could snap my fingers.........
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yep, at the first mention of getting older and my mind immediately went to thinkin' about my boobs, too…
*giggle*
yeah, i'm more saggy, but it's the extra pounds that bug me now, didn't used to trouble me but since 40 they are adding on more than I feel comfortable with. Other than that I am cool with aging so far. The gray hairs are kinda neat :)
I've said it before and I'll say it again” Designer Duct tape”
I manage my titty problem by standing on my head.
heh.